Thursday, November 29, 2007
i'm freaking only halfway thru my report.oh great.
ARGH.
i'm gonna sleep now.
cant take it anymore.
shit.
i've gotta be up at 630.
damnit.
BEAnns Muzzled --> 3:13 AM.
Yikes.
i'm too lazy to upload pictures as of now.
again.
am up late supposedly to do my report.
okay.
after this i will.
hehh.
ohman.
cant stand ppl who thinks so highly of themselves.
dont admit when they're wrong,
push all the blame to others,
make it seem as though they're one head above everone.
wtf.
this people DISGUST me totally.
seriously.
and oh to add.
before that.
makes it seems as though they've been victimised.
and expects so highly of people.
when they dont need you,
they just toss you to one side.
gross.
and to think wth did i even trust someone
like that.
damnit.
its so bloodyannoying.
and other times.
people do need chances to show that they're different
they've changed.
or maybe in the first place.
they've already been mistaken.
aaah.
anyway.
well.
i'll figure all this out another time.
its so tiring.
when der's so manythings on your mind.
i just want to sleep.
ohwells.
lecture tmr at 8am.
how fantastic.
argh.
the best is not to give a damn.
and it comes across as ignorant.
wthell.
at times like this.
you just wished it was all a bad dream.
no, this is reality.
and its only the start.
and now.
just feel its better being a kid.
not growing up.
when everything was naive and simple.
ahaa.
no, it'll be boring.
this is how we learn.
to go through horrible times.
the ppl who take it hard are pessimists.
so the rest,
optimists.
yea.
get over and move on.
there's more ahead.
tmr's always a better day.
supposedly.
it depends on how you set it to be.
our mood.
right.
okay.
enough raving.
there's the happy times in pictures.
which i will upload.
soon hopefully.
hahaha.
no wonder a picture speaks a thousand words.
most of the time,
they're the happier moments in life.
the parts where we'd like to remember most.
back to REPORTS.
this is soo not the life.
i'm too lazy to upload pictures as of now.
again.
am up late supposedly to do my report.
okay.
after this i will.
hehh.
ohman.
cant stand ppl who thinks so highly of themselves.
dont admit when they're wrong,
push all the blame to others,
make it seem as though they're one head above everone.
wtf.
this people DISGUST me totally.
seriously.
and oh to add.
before that.
makes it seems as though they've been victimised.
and expects so highly of people.
when they dont need you,
they just toss you to one side.
gross.
and to think wth did i even trust someone
like that.
damnit.
its so bloodyannoying.
and other times.
people do need chances to show that they're different
they've changed.
or maybe in the first place.
they've already been mistaken.
aaah.
anyway.
well.
i'll figure all this out another time.
its so tiring.
when der's so manythings on your mind.
i just want to sleep.
ohwells.
lecture tmr at 8am.
how fantastic.
argh.
the best is not to give a damn.
and it comes across as ignorant.
wthell.
at times like this.
you just wished it was all a bad dream.
no, this is reality.
and its only the start.
and now.
just feel its better being a kid.
not growing up.
when everything was naive and simple.
ahaa.
no, it'll be boring.
this is how we learn.
to go through horrible times.
the ppl who take it hard are pessimists.
so the rest,
optimists.
yea.
get over and move on.
there's more ahead.
tmr's always a better day.
supposedly.
it depends on how you set it to be.
our mood.
right.
okay.
enough raving.
there's the happy times in pictures.
which i will upload.
soon hopefully.
hahaha.
no wonder a picture speaks a thousand words.
most of the time,
they're the happier moments in life.
the parts where we'd like to remember most.
back to REPORTS.
this is soo not the life.
BEAnns Muzzled --> 12:54 AM.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
okay.
let's face it.
money makes up for it all.
anyway.
working the wkends are really tiring.
now i get it.
i've decided i should cut down on gym-ing.
before i regret it.
my arms are getting bigger.
i like it.
but i can foresee disaster in the future.
and i'm never gonna hit the gym with guys again.
ever.
they push it.
and push you.
NO THANK YOU.
i dont need it.
i'm not pumping up to be some beefcake.
i'm TONING please.
and though most wont believe this.
i do only 1kg weights.
and muscles are visible.
its toning.
oh of course that's only for weights.
i use the pullups machine.
it gives nice arm muscles i've realised.
okay.
madness.
why the heck am i harping on about it.
enough.
hmm.
i've bee nthinking.
if i'm not busy with reports and tests and quizes.
i'll start looking up books on drawing.
its so stress relieving.
brings joy somehow.
ohshoot.
i need to take a shower.
before midnight.
oooh.
its freezing cold.
what are friends for.
you know, just piss off.
get lost whatever.
dont force me to change myself
and i hate your judging.
stop pitying yourself
or thinking about worstcasescenario
you just aggravate the situation.
iamreally beginning to
HATE YOU SO BAD.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
okay.let's face it.
money makes up for it all.
anyway.
working the wkends are really tiring.
now i get it.
i've decided i should cut down on gym-ing.
before i regret it.
my arms are getting bigger.
i like it.
but i can foresee disaster in the future.
and i'm never gonna hit the gym with guys again.
ever.
they push it.
and push you.
NO THANK YOU.
i dont need it.
i'm not pumping up to be some beefcake.
i'm TONING please.
and though most wont believe this.
i do only 1kg weights.
and muscles are visible.
its toning.
oh of course that's only for weights.
i use the pullups machine.
it gives nice arm muscles i've realised.
okay.
madness.
why the heck am i harping on about it.
enough.
hmm.
i've bee nthinking.
if i'm not busy with reports and tests and quizes.
i'll start looking up books on drawing.
its so stress relieving.
brings joy somehow.
ohshoot.
i need to take a shower.
before midnight.
oooh.
its freezing cold.
what are friends for.
you know, just piss off.
get lost whatever.
dont force me to change myself
and i hate your judging.
stop pitying yourself
or thinking about worstcasescenario
you just aggravate the situation.
iamreally beginning to
HATE YOU SO BAD.
BEAnns Muzzled --> 10:55 PM.
im in boring IT lesson once again.
ahaa.
can just die.
just finished my peanut sandwich.
i'm gonna sleep.
she doesnt even bother anyway.
i wanted to do my reports now.
hmm.
maybe i would.
we'll see.
yikes.
i'm craving apple strudel and
dark chocolates nowwww.
yummmmmm.
and i'm broke!!
till moolah comes in again.
then i'll go cut and colour mua hair.
i managed to STAY AWAKE
throughout ALL THE LECTURES
today!
yes.
but i stil dont understand organic chem.
sucks.
ahaa.
can just die.
just finished my peanut sandwich.
i'm gonna sleep.
she doesnt even bother anyway.
i wanted to do my reports now.
hmm.
maybe i would.
we'll see.
yikes.
i'm craving apple strudel and
dark chocolates nowwww.
yummmmmm.
and i'm broke!!
till moolah comes in again.
then i'll go cut and colour mua hair.
i managed to STAY AWAKE
throughout ALL THE LECTURES
today!
yes.
but i stil dont understand organic chem.
sucks.
BEAnns Muzzled --> 4:47 PM.
so.
yea.
i've got 4 reports to do.
of which the due date for 2 was last wk.
and the other 2 today.
and none completed.
its the harder ones.
those that i barely understand what was
going on during lab.
sheesh.
i took almost a bloody day to complete
one report that i just submitted before midnight.
otherwise counted as late.
was just in the nick of time.
ROAR.
damn these reports.
i CANT finish them!
argh
okay.
anyway.
2 of it, microB.
copying from a friend's one.
of course i've gotta paraphrase and do
my own drawings.
but yea its simple.
uhm the other one.
biochem.
is damn hard.
i dont get it at all.
stupid expt was not put up online.
and i dont know how to do a stupid graph.
damnit.
i'll wait till my friend submits hers on wed.
then i'll take a look at hers.
or we'll prob do it together tmr night or something.
sheesh.
okay.
i better go look up the stupid infected cells first.
draw it out and i'm done.
ARGH.
i am turning in NOW.
cant take it anymore.
roarr.
anyhow.
ha. i came home in the afternoon.
wore gym clothes to second lab lesson.
ahahaaa.
everyone was staring.
right.
it didnt look proper la.
gym was somehow good today.
or maybe i just had steam to let out.
ha.
i did so many pullups.
muaha.
ohgosh.
READ THIS.
i was at the pullup machine.
this indian boy was sharing it with me.
i did one set, 70 kg help.
his turn. he shifted to 85kg.
was barely able to pull himself up.
then my turn again.
i put it to 70kg again but took off the extra small
5kg weight above. which was equivalent to 65kg.
ahaa. his turn.
he wanted to do 70kg. and he didnt notice i changed
the weight.
so he tried to do it again. but with difficulty.
he couldnt bring his head above the bar.
and his arms were shivering.
then later on.
i shifted the weight down.
to 55 but with the help of 5 kg.
so 60.
then he went up, this time i think he paiseh.
so he tried to do the same weights as i did.
and he couldnt even pull himself up at all.
he turned and look at me from the side
of his eyes,
got off the machine and walked away.
omg. he must have felt soooooo
EMBARRASSED.
by me.
ahahaaaa.
HAWHAW.
i'm so mean....
but it was funny.
HA
laugh before i tuck in.
yea.
i've got 4 reports to do.
of which the due date for 2 was last wk.
and the other 2 today.
and none completed.
its the harder ones.
those that i barely understand what was
going on during lab.
sheesh.
i took almost a bloody day to complete
one report that i just submitted before midnight.
otherwise counted as late.
was just in the nick of time.
ROAR.
damn these reports.
i CANT finish them!
argh
okay.
anyway.
2 of it, microB.
copying from a friend's one.
of course i've gotta paraphrase and do
my own drawings.
but yea its simple.
uhm the other one.
biochem.
is damn hard.
i dont get it at all.
stupid expt was not put up online.
and i dont know how to do a stupid graph.
damnit.
i'll wait till my friend submits hers on wed.
then i'll take a look at hers.
or we'll prob do it together tmr night or something.
sheesh.
okay.
i better go look up the stupid infected cells first.
draw it out and i'm done.
ARGH.
i am turning in NOW.
cant take it anymore.
roarr.
anyhow.
ha. i came home in the afternoon.
wore gym clothes to second lab lesson.
ahahaaa.
everyone was staring.
right.
it didnt look proper la.
gym was somehow good today.
or maybe i just had steam to let out.
ha.
i did so many pullups.
muaha.
ohgosh.
READ THIS.
i was at the pullup machine.
this indian boy was sharing it with me.
i did one set, 70 kg help.
his turn. he shifted to 85kg.
was barely able to pull himself up.
then my turn again.
i put it to 70kg again but took off the extra small
5kg weight above. which was equivalent to 65kg.
ahaa. his turn.
he wanted to do 70kg. and he didnt notice i changed
the weight.
so he tried to do it again. but with difficulty.
he couldnt bring his head above the bar.
and his arms were shivering.
then later on.
i shifted the weight down.
to 55 but with the help of 5 kg.
so 60.
then he went up, this time i think he paiseh.
so he tried to do the same weights as i did.
and he couldnt even pull himself up at all.
he turned and look at me from the side
of his eyes,
got off the machine and walked away.
omg. he must have felt soooooo
EMBARRASSED.
by me.
ahahaaaa.
HAWHAW.
i'm so mean....
but it was funny.
HA
laugh before i tuck in.
BEAnns Muzzled --> 12:52 AM.
Monday, November 19, 2007
bloodyhell.
okay.
right now.
i've seriouslyhave to learn selfcontrol.
or i'm gonna have ta let it out somewhere.
before i throw up on someone instead.
damnit.
the Mothership is back to usual.
thanks alot.
i thought she understood more about me.
after all these years.
conclusion. no she doesnt.
how sad.
its Alright.
it doesnt matter.
i didnt set my hopes high anyway.
i knew it will turn around and stab me in the back.
Okayy.
Everything still has to go on.
and there'll be more complaints.
hey.if i cant rant it here.
where else right.
ahaa.
no matter what.
i've set my mind on finding my own
fun and time for laughter amidst it all.
i just cant believe its back to norm.
just when i was on the verge of believing.
sounds like a punishment from God.
for having too much freedom.
hello.for only a year after shit.
now its back to shit.
okay. like i said.
Good things dont last.
precisely why it Was good.
i've had my fill.
now i'll wait till i'm 21.
its not too long.
she's still the in charge.
it doesnt matter anymore.
i wont bother to pick or start a fight.
it was childish and make things worst.
now feign ignorance.
AHAHAHAHAHAAA.
how great. Not.
okay. back to my reports.
i'm home from lablesson this morn to
completemy reports
no time to do it yest was working.
and she blabbered.
okay. so i rant.
back to papers and readings.
tonight i'll be back.
muahaa.
i've yet to face my worst nightmare.
what an understatement.
i will force myself to believe that there's better
things ahead.
now i'm hating it.
sometimes things are better suppressed.
it will apear horrid on the surface.
Monday, November 19, 2007
bloodyhell.okay.
right now.
i've seriouslyhave to learn selfcontrol.
or i'm gonna have ta let it out somewhere.
before i throw up on someone instead.
damnit.
the Mothership is back to usual.
thanks alot.
i thought she understood more about me.
after all these years.
conclusion. no she doesnt.
how sad.
its Alright.
it doesnt matter.
i didnt set my hopes high anyway.
i knew it will turn around and stab me in the back.
Okayy.
Everything still has to go on.
and there'll be more complaints.
hey.if i cant rant it here.
where else right.
ahaa.
no matter what.
i've set my mind on finding my own
fun and time for laughter amidst it all.
i just cant believe its back to norm.
just when i was on the verge of believing.
sounds like a punishment from God.
for having too much freedom.
hello.for only a year after shit.
now its back to shit.
okay. like i said.
Good things dont last.
precisely why it Was good.
i've had my fill.
now i'll wait till i'm 21.
its not too long.
she's still the in charge.
it doesnt matter anymore.
i wont bother to pick or start a fight.
it was childish and make things worst.
now feign ignorance.
AHAHAHAHAHAAA.
how great. Not.
okay. back to my reports.
i'm home from lablesson this morn to
completemy reports
no time to do it yest was working.
and she blabbered.
okay. so i rant.
back to papers and readings.
tonight i'll be back.
muahaa.
i've yet to face my worst nightmare.
what an understatement.
i will force myself to believe that there's better
things ahead.
now i'm hating it.
sometimes things are better suppressed.
it will apear horrid on the surface.
BEAnns Muzzled --> 12:39 PM.
Thursday, November 15, 2007
OMG!!
just LOOK AT THAT PICTURE!!
the giraffe is SOOOOOOO ME!
cant stand it.
muahahaa.
it makes me laugh when i look at it!!
awww.
i just totally love this.
ahahaa.
its soooo sweet :))
hehehe.
we bought this as a clique.
mine's the sheepo on the left.
muahaa.
i love it!
its hunch back just like ME.
ahaha.
madness.
i kept thinking today's friday.
cus' i only had sch from 3-6.
which i came late for.
so it seemed not so much ta study.
tmr's gonna be BETTER!!
its 2 hours in school.
muahahaa.
but i've stil gotta be up at 730.
class at 9.
well.
i had lunch at crystaljade which added up
to less than 10 bucks per person!
in fact, i paid only 8plus.
cant believe it.
i didnt even know.
but anyway.
i shared a HUGE bowl of noodle with a friend.
and we shared 3 boxes of xiaolongbao.
a box of panfried dunno0-what meatt stuff
and i had 2 charsiewpao.
all of under 10!!
amazing.
ahahaa
i'm so gonna go back for moreeeee.
and it was filling.
the beauty of going out in
a group of 5.
cus' everything's in 5 or 2.
ahaha.
easier to share.
well.
the oldies stil rawk my life.
though it was weird.
like all four of them were
the Uniform people...
in the midst of A's.
they stil do know how to enjoy.
they're halfway thru A's
and they decided to go out.
ahahaa. said its to celebrate
half the A's gone.
right.
and next wk's gonna be the big celebration.
damnfunnypeople.
1/4 the time they were discussing about
their econs case study paper.
right.
i'm so glad i'm not in JC.
well.
anyway. yea. for that short time i
didnt really know what was going on.
seriously.
what theheck is econs for.
man i sure do hope i wont ever haveta
touch it.
for that same moment i felt rather weird.
the feeling they're gonna be in uni and all.
ahead of you.
and its gonna be even harder ta keep in touch
cus' of all their weird schedules and they'll
probably be much more involved with their own
activities and school alr.
furthermore they'll prob stay in the hostel.
which equals to not being able to meet up at all.
and i've stil got 2 more years to go.
then again if i had graduated with them.
i'd probably would have been "pressured"
to go into jc which i strongly detest for them.
so i'm pretty glad i didnt. HA.
this is the life.poly minus the longer hours.
but its really much less stressful and all.
okay.this was a random thought.
they're gonna be on a long break soon.
oh and it sucks.
when they kinda like plan
damn interesting and fun activities to do.
but unfortunately
i just cant make it
cus' i've got school.
nonetheless, at least they always meet
either wed or thurs.
thursdays are one of my earliest.
but then again.
FATbug's gonna kill me if i ever PS
her every thurs.
ahaaa.
its supposedly our day of the wk which
we keep so we'll meet up every wk
despite our very different schedules
and our schools' are so darn far apart.
the central place townn.
its good that we stay nearby.
so its the same way home.
most of the time we take the bus
which gives us more time ta talk
and nothing else.
gross.
i hate it when people say poly is easy.
yeayea.
for some courses only that is.
damn it.
i see no one having ta study or
wreck their brains out.
FATbug for one is adding oil to the flame.
HTM is so bloodySLACK!
ahaa
but she cant run from econssss.
too bad.
anyway.
a HUGE thank you to terrence
who's willing ta study with me.
before i can just sleep on all my notes.
biostats is GROSS.
and organic chem is -___-
okay. ahahaa
that's all.
oh.
and i've gotta tell myself i need the A's.
sheesh.
put me in such slack environment
and i become like any of them.
its like that.
its damn easy to pass.
but its damn hard to get an A.
i've got a gay friend in school.
who is keeping me awake in class.
but i cant stand it when he sings!!
omg. its .........
i can use it as alarm in the morn and
i'll leap straight up man.
its horrible.
there's more and more gays around!
ohplease!
soon there'll not be anymore
handsome guys for us!!
sheesh.
then we'll all become SPGs.
whow. how great.
i'm trash talking for some reason
but my mind's just so
untroubled and free now.
ahahaa.
tmr the dance people are gonna die
from my craziness again.
awww. its not that bad.
so in such a relaxed mood.
spending time once in a while
with people from the same madhouse
is wonderful..
i love these short dosages.
perks you up.
every once in awhile,
its great for something good to happen.
but then again,
it cant always be all good and free,
otherwise those things good wont seem
that way anymore =)
can't explain how i'm feeling.
but its more than just being real happy.
ohgosh.
i've gotta work on my vocab and adjectives.
damn.
ahaa.
project runway is not helping.
i stil cant do it.
stupid runways.
roarrr.
i do hope i can pull it off.
ha.
ehem,
i've gotten in touch with the
feminine side of me man!
FEL!
bet if you were here,
you'll laugh your face off.
nvm,
i can always send you the video.
and it'll put a grin on your face
whenever you're stressed out by bks.
HA.
you'll never believe that i actually AGREED
to doing it.
but ohwells.
at least its a smalllllll part.
okay.
gosh. so this really is me huh.
talking and typing soooo much.
ahahaaa. eh i'm normal OKay.
great i've gotta hit the sheets.
happy, satisfied, contented.
GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD night x))
Thursday, November 15, 2007
OMG!!
just LOOK AT THAT PICTURE!!
the giraffe is SOOOOOOO ME!
cant stand it.
muahahaa.
it makes me laugh when i look at it!!
awww.
i just totally love this.
ahahaa.
its soooo sweet :))
hehehe.
we bought this as a clique.
mine's the sheepo on the left.
muahaa.
i love it!
its hunch back just like ME.
ahaha.
madness.
i kept thinking today's friday.
cus' i only had sch from 3-6.
which i came late for.
so it seemed not so much ta study.
tmr's gonna be BETTER!!
its 2 hours in school.
muahahaa.
but i've stil gotta be up at 730.
class at 9.
well.
i had lunch at crystaljade which added up
to less than 10 bucks per person!
in fact, i paid only 8plus.
cant believe it.
i didnt even know.
but anyway.
i shared a HUGE bowl of noodle with a friend.
and we shared 3 boxes of xiaolongbao.
a box of panfried dunno0-what meatt stuff
and i had 2 charsiewpao.
all of under 10!!
amazing.
ahahaa
i'm so gonna go back for moreeeee.
and it was filling.
the beauty of going out in
a group of 5.
cus' everything's in 5 or 2.
ahaha.
easier to share.
well.
the oldies stil rawk my life.
though it was weird.
like all four of them were
the Uniform people...
in the midst of A's.
they stil do know how to enjoy.
they're halfway thru A's
and they decided to go out.
ahahaa. said its to celebrate
half the A's gone.
right.
and next wk's gonna be the big celebration.
damnfunnypeople.
1/4 the time they were discussing about
their econs case study paper.
right.
i'm so glad i'm not in JC.
well.
anyway. yea. for that short time i
didnt really know what was going on.
seriously.
what theheck is econs for.
man i sure do hope i wont ever haveta
touch it.
for that same moment i felt rather weird.
the feeling they're gonna be in uni and all.
ahead of you.
and its gonna be even harder ta keep in touch
cus' of all their weird schedules and they'll
probably be much more involved with their own
activities and school alr.
furthermore they'll prob stay in the hostel.
which equals to not being able to meet up at all.
and i've stil got 2 more years to go.
then again if i had graduated with them.
i'd probably would have been "pressured"
to go into jc which i strongly detest for them.
so i'm pretty glad i didnt. HA.
this is the life.poly minus the longer hours.
but its really much less stressful and all.
okay.this was a random thought.
they're gonna be on a long break soon.
oh and it sucks.
when they kinda like plan
damn interesting and fun activities to do.
but unfortunately
i just cant make it
cus' i've got school.
nonetheless, at least they always meet
either wed or thurs.
thursdays are one of my earliest.
but then again.
FATbug's gonna kill me if i ever PS
her every thurs.
ahaaa.
its supposedly our day of the wk which
we keep so we'll meet up every wk
despite our very different schedules
and our schools' are so darn far apart.
the central place townn.
its good that we stay nearby.
so its the same way home.
most of the time we take the bus
which gives us more time ta talk
and nothing else.
gross.
i hate it when people say poly is easy.
yeayea.
for some courses only that is.
damn it.
i see no one having ta study or
wreck their brains out.
FATbug for one is adding oil to the flame.
HTM is so bloodySLACK!
ahaa
but she cant run from econssss.
too bad.
anyway.
a HUGE thank you to terrence
who's willing ta study with me.
before i can just sleep on all my notes.
biostats is GROSS.
and organic chem is -___-
okay. ahahaa
that's all.
oh.
and i've gotta tell myself i need the A's.
sheesh.
put me in such slack environment
and i become like any of them.
its like that.
its damn easy to pass.
but its damn hard to get an A.
i've got a gay friend in school.
who is keeping me awake in class.
but i cant stand it when he sings!!
omg. its .........
i can use it as alarm in the morn and
i'll leap straight up man.
its horrible.
there's more and more gays around!
ohplease!
soon there'll not be anymore
handsome guys for us!!
sheesh.
then we'll all become SPGs.
whow. how great.
i'm trash talking for some reason
but my mind's just so
untroubled and free now.
ahahaa.
tmr the dance people are gonna die
from my craziness again.
awww. its not that bad.
so in such a relaxed mood.
spending time once in a while
with people from the same madhouse
is wonderful..
i love these short dosages.
perks you up.
every once in awhile,
its great for something good to happen.
but then again,
it cant always be all good and free,
otherwise those things good wont seem
that way anymore =)
can't explain how i'm feeling.
but its more than just being real happy.
ohgosh.
i've gotta work on my vocab and adjectives.
damn.
ahaa.
project runway is not helping.
i stil cant do it.
stupid runways.
roarrr.
i do hope i can pull it off.
ha.
ehem,
i've gotten in touch with the
feminine side of me man!
FEL!
bet if you were here,
you'll laugh your face off.
nvm,
i can always send you the video.
and it'll put a grin on your face
whenever you're stressed out by bks.
HA.
you'll never believe that i actually AGREED
to doing it.
but ohwells.
at least its a smalllllll part.
okay.
gosh. so this really is me huh.
talking and typing soooo much.
ahahaaa. eh i'm normal OKay.
great i've gotta hit the sheets.
happy, satisfied, contented.
GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD night x))
BEAnns Muzzled --> 12:21 AM.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
WHOWW.
today was indeed a long day.
got up and had to rush ta school.
it was biochem pract.
couldnt be late.
the labteacher gives no chance.
so anyway. after sch, went to the gym.
into a more comfortable surrounding.
went for dinner
and off ta meet the BEAttitudes.
ahaa.
well you all better come support us.
esther needs all the us ta be behind her!
she's doing a FANTASTIC job =))
its one thing ta perform.
another to do it and reach out to souls.
she's just the right one for that x)
okay.
now here goes.
reflections for the day.
aaaah.
its not that i'm trying ta distant myself
from them or anything.
but there's just something in the air.
all's fine.
yea if it was, everyday would be boring.
ha.
no, there's more.
people makes stupid decisions.
some that can be covered up and
soon forgotten
while others can just easily get over and be done with
well for one.
i think i did make a wrong choice.
and i'm gonna have to stick to it for 6years.
hellot of years that's gonna be to
pay for a wrong decision.
but its okay.
it'll serve me well in my old age.
but for now.
oh.
its the damn
"what do you want to be when you grow up"
question.
since i was young,
always said that i wanted to be a scientist.
and how great.
the prophesy came through.
sigh.
its not that i dont like the course.
oh please.
spare me,
will you.
then again.
this was my choice.
get on with it, jan.
there's no one sign of a pharmacist
let alone a tinge of science in me.
but of course
i would much rather be gaining such knowledge
then be stuck trying my luck with econs.
roarr.
i'm not indecisive.
i've got a dream.
something i want to do.
i guess its about holding it close to heart
and not letting it go.
someday it will happen.
many people have given up their dreams.
living in such a society.
i'm not surprised.
unfortunately,
this is a vicious cycle.
continual effect.
we've all been brainwashed.
not so much as bad now.
but yes.
taking my chances
to keep my dream =)
it doesnt matter how long
the feeling aftr i've reached that point.
just that split moment.
is Spectacular.
6years.
nah it'll be quick.
will i even live till then.
ahahaa.
nothing is for sure whattt.
let's see...25...
what a ripe age x))
muahaa.
Life will be better if we,
Forgive the stupid.
Ignore the insensitive.
Endure the irritants.
Tolerate the copycats.
Dispose the ignorant.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
WHOWW.today was indeed a long day.
got up and had to rush ta school.
it was biochem pract.
couldnt be late.
the labteacher gives no chance.
so anyway. after sch, went to the gym.
into a more comfortable surrounding.
went for dinner
and off ta meet the BEAttitudes.
ahaa.
well you all better come support us.
esther needs all the us ta be behind her!
she's doing a FANTASTIC job =))
its one thing ta perform.
another to do it and reach out to souls.
she's just the right one for that x)
okay.
now here goes.
reflections for the day.
aaaah.
its not that i'm trying ta distant myself
from them or anything.
but there's just something in the air.
all's fine.
yea if it was, everyday would be boring.
ha.
no, there's more.
people makes stupid decisions.
some that can be covered up and
soon forgotten
while others can just easily get over and be done with
well for one.
i think i did make a wrong choice.
and i'm gonna have to stick to it for 6years.
hellot of years that's gonna be to
pay for a wrong decision.
but its okay.
it'll serve me well in my old age.
but for now.
oh.
its the damn
"what do you want to be when you grow up"
question.
since i was young,
always said that i wanted to be a scientist.
and how great.
the prophesy came through.
sigh.
its not that i dont like the course.
oh please.
spare me,
will you.
then again.
this was my choice.
get on with it, jan.
there's no one sign of a pharmacist
let alone a tinge of science in me.
but of course
i would much rather be gaining such knowledge
then be stuck trying my luck with econs.
roarr.
i'm not indecisive.
i've got a dream.
something i want to do.
i guess its about holding it close to heart
and not letting it go.
someday it will happen.
many people have given up their dreams.
living in such a society.
i'm not surprised.
unfortunately,
this is a vicious cycle.
continual effect.
we've all been brainwashed.
not so much as bad now.
but yes.
taking my chances
to keep my dream =)
it doesnt matter how long
the feeling aftr i've reached that point.
just that split moment.
is Spectacular.
6years.
nah it'll be quick.
will i even live till then.
ahahaa.
nothing is for sure whattt.
let's see...25...
what a ripe age x))
muahaa.
Life will be better if we,
Forgive the stupid.
Ignore the insensitive.
Endure the irritants.
Tolerate the copycats.
Dispose the ignorant.
BEAnns Muzzled --> 12:06 AM.
Monday, November 12, 2007
the weekends past in a flash x\
and now its back to labs and lectures.
and all the superficiality in the air.
i'm not saying that people or myself fake it all.
but its just..
different.
people just arent that interested in really making friends
anymore.
its more like friends by force.
myself included.
i dont see why i cant get along as well.
maybe its just different frequency.
after all. the course im in tells alot of the people they are.
sigh.
i've got a clique.
and all.
but its not the same.
again the problem is .
after one sem.
i still cant see any similarities.
omgg.
i mean they're the closest to the same frequency
but stil different.
its not they're not nice.
they are.
but sadly..
i dont feel comfortable with them.
its just so tensed feeling i get.
roarr.
they probably cant tell.
they're all on the same frequency.
hmm.
i guess i'm complaining again
because of the number of hours in sch
everyday that i spent with them.
its too much.
from 9-6 everyday i see their faces.
omg.
why am i even complaining.
madness.
i've gotta get used to it.
next time it'll be the same.
roarrrr.
this is just somethings i think about it.
and i just put up an entry.
lalalalaaa.
ahahhaa.
i'm getting the monday blues
on a sunday night!!
whattheheck is wrong.
rRRRROOOOOAAARRRRrr
i hat e s chhoo lll.
that's it.
Monday, November 12, 2007
the weekends past in a flash x\and now its back to labs and lectures.
and all the superficiality in the air.
i'm not saying that people or myself fake it all.
but its just..
different.
people just arent that interested in really making friends
anymore.
its more like friends by force.
myself included.
i dont see why i cant get along as well.
maybe its just different frequency.
after all. the course im in tells alot of the people they are.
sigh.
i've got a clique.
and all.
but its not the same.
again the problem is .
after one sem.
i still cant see any similarities.
omgg.
i mean they're the closest to the same frequency
but stil different.
its not they're not nice.
they are.
but sadly..
i dont feel comfortable with them.
its just so tensed feeling i get.
roarr.
they probably cant tell.
they're all on the same frequency.
hmm.
i guess i'm complaining again
because of the number of hours in sch
everyday that i spent with them.
its too much.
from 9-6 everyday i see their faces.
omg.
why am i even complaining.
madness.
i've gotta get used to it.
next time it'll be the same.
roarrrr.
this is just somethings i think about it.
and i just put up an entry.
lalalalaaa.
ahahhaa.
i'm getting the monday blues
on a sunday night!!
whattheheck is wrong.
rRRRROOOOOAAARRRRrr
i hat e s chhoo lll.
that's it.
BEAnns Muzzled --> 12:14 AM.
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
HELLOOOOOOOOOOOO
muahaa.
back here after so long.
i'm having freaking IT lesson.
learning excel.
BOOO x(
it SUCKS big time.
and so i'm blogging.
TSKTSK.
i miss blogging.
ahahaa.
shall bring this blog back to lifee.
ahaa.
well. my parents are BACK.
for a few weeks now actually.
hmm. everything seems fine.
for now.
hyekhyekhyek.
i bought a beaver puppet to
disturb my mum.
AHAHA.
she laughs like madd everytime
i make it talk.
she says it looks like me and my dad.
I AM NOT THAT CHUBBY -
boooooo.
heheh
i love my new toy.
its rather entertaining.
ROAR.
lesson is sooo boring.
i want to sleep.
hopefully he gets it over and done with ASAP.
then we'll be let off earlier too x))
gonna catch the gameplan tonight!!
whooots.
yawns.
there was actually no school for me tmr.
because all the tutorials are to be done online.
thanks to german, i've gotta be back here at 3.
BUT at least its something that i enjoy pretty much.
thursday is HOLIDAY.
yesyesyes.
this wk's gonna past in a flash.
ohgosh.
the lectures are getting harder.
roooarrr.
i only get half the lecture.
the lecturer's so not clear.
keeps repeating the same thing
over and over and that's it.
got an mc for yesterday.
yayy.
my throat hurts.
boo.
i need to carry a waterbottle with me
everywhere i go.
yes. its finally the end.
now is 4.44pm =))
MUAHAHA.
i started at 3.15pm
YESYSESSSSSSSSSSS
CHAOO!!! xD
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOmuahaa.
back here after so long.
i'm having freaking IT lesson.
learning excel.
BOOO x(
it SUCKS big time.
and so i'm blogging.
TSKTSK.
i miss blogging.
ahahaa.
shall bring this blog back to lifee.
ahaa.
well. my parents are BACK.
for a few weeks now actually.
hmm. everything seems fine.
for now.
hyekhyekhyek.
i bought a beaver puppet to
disturb my mum.
AHAHA.
she laughs like madd everytime
i make it talk.
she says it looks like me and my dad.
I AM NOT THAT CHUBBY -
boooooo.
heheh
i love my new toy.
its rather entertaining.
ROAR.
lesson is sooo boring.
i want to sleep.
hopefully he gets it over and done with ASAP.
then we'll be let off earlier too x))
gonna catch the gameplan tonight!!
whooots.
yawns.
there was actually no school for me tmr.
because all the tutorials are to be done online.
thanks to german, i've gotta be back here at 3.
BUT at least its something that i enjoy pretty much.
thursday is HOLIDAY.
yesyesyes.
this wk's gonna past in a flash.
ohgosh.
the lectures are getting harder.
roooarrr.
i only get half the lecture.
the lecturer's so not clear.
keeps repeating the same thing
over and over and that's it.
got an mc for yesterday.
yayy.
my throat hurts.
boo.
i need to carry a waterbottle with me
everywhere i go.
yes. its finally the end.
now is 4.44pm =))
MUAHAHA.
i started at 3.15pm
YESYSESSSSSSSSSSS
CHAOO!!! xD
BEAnns Muzzled --> 3:48 PM.